If you had asked me that question two days ago I would have said a higher income for My Man and me, to be out of this financial mess we are in, to be able to go grocery shop and not “worry” about what I throw into the cart.
But today my heart’s desires are different. I desire to have a closer walk with Jesus. I desire to do His will and to share His gospel with more people. I desire for my heart to be captivated by Jesus.
Yesterday, our pastor’s message was from Luke 2:22-40. It is the story of Joseph and Mary taking Jesus to the temple on the eighth day as required by their law. They meet two very godly people, Simeon and Anna. Our pastor pointed out how they had longed to see the Messiah.
The question was asked, “Do I ache for Jesus’ return? What is the desire of my heart? Do I have a desire to glimpse into God’s glory here and now?” I had to honestly say, “No…no, I do not desire that. I desire to be out of the mess and back on our feet financially so I can spend money again.” I felt so ashamed. It could be, and probably is, the reason we can’t get out of it. I am so focus on it that it has become my god. That is possible you know. To be so focused on something other than God that it becomes your god.
But that god didn’t die for me. It didn’t love me enough to give up everything for me. Shoot, it can’t love me. So, yesterday I laid that at the altar and gave my heart back to Jesus. I am His child and He will take care of me now and in the future. He always has and alway will. It’s just who He is…love.
These questions were also asked as food for thought.
- Have I grown content with the absence of Christ?
- What am I doing to make a difference in this world?
- When was the last time I made a true sacrifice for the Lord? willing to give up something (like a vacation) to help spread the gospel?
This are questions we must ask ourselves on a regular basis. Really, all we need to ask is what do I really want…God’s will be done or mine? I choose God’s. It is soooooo much better!