Monthly Archives: November 2011

But I Don’t Want To

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“Jesus replied, ‘Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.” John 14:23

I keep a 6-year-old in the afternoons after school. We have nicknamed her “Boo” because when she was little and we put her hair in pigtails, she looked like Boo from the movie Monsters Inc. 

Like all 6-year-olds there can be days that are trying. She has her moments of not doing what I ask her to do. Even with the simplest thing like putting on her shoes when she is told. She runs to do something else. UGH! Some days I just want to scream at her. I don’t. I know it wouldn’t do any good, and she would only cry and I would feel like a mean and hateful person. I just patiently stop her and tell her again to do what she was told. She does, even if she doesn’t want to.

I found myself acting like Boo this week. Not wanting to do what I was asked by God.

Last week, God showed me an opportunity. I think. I got that old anxious feeling inside. It was so strong I really couldn’t tell if it was God not wanting me to do it or that fact don’t want to do it. I couldn’t do any thing about it then anyway. The opportunity wasn’t open, literally, because of Thanksgiving break. So, I said I would check on it this week. I put it off Monday and Tuesday. Called myself  “praying” about it, but I was really trying to talk God out of it. Well…I made the call today. LOL the person I needed to talk to was out of the office and will be until Friday. I’ll have to wait till then to see if the opportunity is open. I still hope not. Doesn’t matter though. I was obedient and made the call. The anxious feeling is gone. I have never regretted being obedient to God. Even if I’m asked to make a simple phone call.

Now the question is will I be obedient if the opportunity is open to me? Ugh! Well, like Scarlett O’Hara said, “I can’t think about that right now. If I do, I’ll go crazy. I’ll think about that tomorrow.”

Father, Like a child there are times I don’t want to do what You tell me to do. But, I have never regretted being obedient. Help me now to be obedient to You and what You want me to do today. I love You! ❤

Read: Isaiah 1:18-20

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Making The Switch

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“He then began to teach them that the Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and after three days rise again.” Mark 8:31

No…I’m not talking about changing my cell phone service. Couldn’t if I wanted to. We live out in the country have only one company that can reach us. “Can you hear me now?” LOL

I am in the process of switching from WordPress.com to another domain registrar. Not that I’m not satisfied with WordPress, I just didn’t do my initial research as well as I should have. You see, I was not only wanting to start a blog to share the gospel with others, but I was also looking for a source of extra income. My family really needs that right now.

My blog will still be His Heart and Home and the website will still be hisheartandhome.com. It’s just that when I switch I will no longer be at wordpress.com but .org (through a host site) and I will lose all my precious followers. Those of you who have subscribed to my blog will no longer get the e-mails telling you of my lasted post. 😦 That makes me sad. But , the good news is you can subscribe at my new site! I hope all of you will. I do have your e-mails addresses, so when the switch is complete, I will send you a message letting you know. You are always welcome to contact me at hisheartandhome@yahoo.com.

It is funny the  message God gives me while I am typing sometimes. Like while typing this I couldn’t help but think of the warning Jesus give His disciples many times about His upcoming death and resurrection. They heard it but didn’t really pay any attention. In one ear and out the other. That would have been me. Seriously! Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you that to tell me something, it just doesn’t register. But, draw me a picture or write it down…I’ll remember it.

Ok, how did that come out of telling you about my blog. Well, it’s dying to wordpress.com and rising at wordpress.org through its father domain registrar and host site. Yes, I know! I’m strange! My mind thinks in weird ways! My family says I’m blond. Blonds may seem dumb, but there is really some deep thinking going on behind that hair. Maybe too deep for our own good.  LOL  But, that is the whole idea behind this blog; telling you how I see Jesus daily. That was one way I saw Him today.

Oh, and my blog will have a “gloried body”, too. Ok, a new header, but I’m trying to stick with the analogy. Now, I’m getting too blond even for me.

A work in progress

 

Anyway, be on the look out for my e-mail if you subscribe and the new look. And be on the look out for the return of Jesus. (another analogy there. Couldn’t resist) Please pray I will be able to reach even more for Jesus through this endeavor.

Father, I thank You for the warning that You gave your disciples about Your death and resurrection. I am thankful for the warning you gave to us to be on the look out for Your return. Let me live today as if it is the day You are coming. We never know!

Read: Mark 8:31-33

My Heart’s Desire

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“It had been revealed to him by the Holy Spirit that he would not die before he had seen the Lord’s Christ.” Luke 2:26All I want for Christmas is…

If you had asked me that question two days ago I would have said a higher income for My Man and me, to be out of this financial mess we are in, to be able to go grocery shop and not “worry” about what I throw into the cart.

But today my heart’s desires are different. I desire to have a closer walk with Jesus. I desire to do His will and to share His gospel with more people.  I desire for my heart to be captivated by Jesus.

Yesterday, our pastor’s message was from Luke 2:22-40. It is the story of Joseph and Mary taking Jesus to the temple on the eighth day as required by their law. They meet two very godly people, Simeon and Anna. Our pastor pointed out how they had longed to see the Messiah.

The question was asked, “Do I ache for Jesus’ return? What is the desire of my heart? Do I have a desire to glimpse into God’s glory here and now?” I had to honestly say, “No…no, I do not desire that. I desire to be out of the mess and back on our feet financially so I can spend money again.” I felt so ashamed. It could be, and probably is, the reason we can’t get out of it. I am so focus on it that it has become my god. That is possible you know. To be so focused on something other than God that it becomes your god.

But that god didn’t die for me. It didn’t love me enough to give up everything for me. Shoot, it can’t love me. So, yesterday I  laid that at the altar and gave my heart back to Jesus. I am His child and He will take care of me now and in the future. He always has and alway will. It’s just who He is…love.

These questions were also asked as food for thought.

  • Have I grown content with the absence of Christ?
  • What am I doing to make a difference in this world?
  • When was the last time I made a true sacrifice for the Lord? willing to give up something (like a vacation) to help spread the gospel?

This are questions we must ask ourselves on a regular basis. Really, all we need to ask is what do I really want…God’s will be done or mine? I choose God’s. It is soooooo much better!

Happy Thanksgiving

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I just want to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. I am so thankful to be able to do this blog for Jesus. He has blessed me in ways I could not have imagined.

Not only has He blessed me with salvation through His blood on the cross, He has blessed me with…

My family,

friends,

a church family,

a nice home,

a job,

clothes galore,

a car that is paid for and runs,

His word to read,

food in the pantry,

eyes to see sun rises and sun sets with,

good health,

talents,

skills,

spiritual gifts,

hope and a future,

eternal life.

These are just some of the things I have to be grateful for. Thank You, Father God, for all your many, many blessings! I love you!

 

 

His Expectations

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“Love the Lord your God and keep His…commands always.” Deuteronomy 11:1

Going through a crisis, difficult time, trials, struggles, whatever you want to call them, is no fun. No fun at all. I get those anxious feelings, those feelings of being trapped, not able to get out or even see a way out. I guess you might call that hopeless. When you are going through a rough financial time the upcoming Christmas season doesn’t help. I like to give gifts to my loved ones. And even homemade gifts, which I do love to do, still take money. Maybe not as much, but still…

I am so thankful for all we have. There was a time when we could have -should have -lost everything. But God, in His grace, allowed us to keep it all. Tomorrow we celebrate Thanksgiving and all month on Facebook I have been posting something daily I am thankful for. To say I am thankful for His provisions is an understatement.

Yet, with the Christmas season upon us, I find myself anxious once again. Just paying the bills is hard enough. Now, I need presents on top of that. How in the world am I going to do that? Oh yea! I’m not…God is. Even if it comes down to the eleventh hour God will provide. We will have a good Christmas. He has done it before and He will do it again. Even if He doesn’t I will praise Him for all we do have.

I was thinking this morning about God answering my cries for help. He rarely answers them the way I have pictured in my mind. I was focusing this morning on what I hope it will be like when this crisis is all said and done. (And hopefully that will be sooner than later) I found myself thinking the way I did before the crisis began. I can’t think that way anymore. God has been showing me I need to rid myself of that thinking and begin thinking more like Him. Should He restore our income to what is was before, I can not handle the finances like before. I must be obedient to the way He wants me to handle them. I must change my attitude about spending money.

Isn’t that a lesson He has shown us all through His word? When we are in a crisis and we ask Him to deliver us, He is faithful and helps us. But He does expect us now to be obedient to Him and to share what He has done for us. It is the testimony He has given us to share. He doesn’t deliver us for us to fall back into our old ways. And He warns us that if we do, we will have to suffer the consequences for our disobedience.

So, I have decided to do my best to listen more carefully to Him and follow Him. He knows that best way out of the mess and once I’m out, He knows the best way for me to stay out of it again.

Father, Thank you for hearing my cries for help and getting me out of this. You will see me through to the end. I will give You the praise that You deserve and I will share the testimony You have given to me with others. I love You!

Read Deuteronomy 11:1-12

 

Just Got Busy

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“For I am convinced that neither death nor life…nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39

It has been a while since my last post. No real reason why. I just got really busy and had some things I needed to get done. One of the things I had to do was make a wedding gift for my cousin who is getting married in December. I made her stockings. I thought I could get them done in about an hour. It took about 3 1/2 hours.  , I thought they turned out really pretty.

The next day I decided that the computer/sewing/office/junk room needed to be cleaned up and out. It was a mess. It went from this… (See the desk on the left?) …to this

I got most of my crafting stuff into this container an doff the desk. I still have a little more work to do in there. Of course this job took longer then I expected. I thought 2 hours tops. HA! More like all day! I had lots of ribbon I took off their spools and made them smaller. Now they all fit into a cylinder container. That took only… forever!! More on what I learned this day later.

This is my next project. All the stuff under that table…yea, boxes of pictures that need to be sorted.  Ugh! Am not looking forward to that task.

I also just got busy with cleaning my house and washing clothes. After a couple of days of doing other stuff, my house gets ignored and therefore very messy.

The past two days I have had Boo here. We are out of school for Thanksgiving break this week. Her mom still had to work, so I’ve been babysitting. I’m use to it being quiet while I do my blog. It is rather hard to concentrate  with her here. She  has much she needs to tell me. LOL

It has been a productive time, but I have missed writing. I have missed sharing what Jesus has been teaching me.

All of this has made me thankful that my Lord never gets too busy for me. He always has time to listen to me. He always has time to speak to me. He always has time to help me. He always has time to comfort me. He always has time to spend with me. He always has time to clean out my heart. He loves me matter how busy I may get.

Father, thank you that You never get too busy for me. Help me to always remember to spend time with You each day. I am always refreshed and renewed when I do.

Read: Luke 10:38-42

Rambling

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Ok, I am totally blank. Can’t think of a thing to write about. Well, yes I can, but I would be complaining and complaining ain’t pretty, so I’m not going to complain.

It is raining here today. It is much-needed. I like to listen to the rain. And the fall trees against the gray sky are beautiful.

I have a ton of work to do but don’t feel like doing any of it.

We heard Booger bark for the first time. There was a bulldog in our yard. It was funny to watch. Bandit, our other dog, the adult dog, was the brawn and Booger was the bark. They tagged teamed that bulldog. Bandit chased it and Booger stayed on the porch and barked.

Booger barks in his sleep too. And he whistles through his nose. When dreaming, and while barking, he “runs” after something. Guess he is dreaming about chasing that bulldog off some day. LOL

Yesterday I started making a wedding gift for my cousin. Took longer then I thought it would. Always seems to happen that way. I need to finish it today and get it in the mail.

Rambling, I know. I tend to ramble like this when I pray too. Like the 6-year-old that I keep who talks even when I’m not in the room. The difference between God and me…He still listens to what I am saying. He probably smiles and giggles just waiting for me to take a breath so He can speak. Sometimes if I talk long enough I do have to take that breath and He gives me the answer. It was right in front of me the whole time. I just need to shut up just long enough to hear it.

Ok, I really need to go do something. Still don’t feel like working but it won’t do itself now will it?

Father, thank you for listening to me ramble. Thank You for always hearing me and knowing my desires better than I do. You are an awesome God.